It is with a very heavy heart and more sadness than I can bear that I share this post with you today. Last Thursday, our beloved golden retriever, Tanner, passed away. It was sudden and extremely unexpected, and we all feel a great sense of loss. If you know me at all, you know it’s almost impossible for me to say goodbye to pets. They are such an important part of my life.
This loss has, perhaps, been the hardest of all. Hard because there was no warning. No illness, No advanced notice. No mental or emotional preparation. No official goodbye.
It was like any other late summer evening. We were outside enjoying the nice weather. Tanner was following me around the yard, being his energetic, goofy retriever self. Grabbing at sticks, galloping through the yard and vying for attention between Peanut, Twix, Peyton and Dixie.
About 10:30, we heard a lot of barking on the patio. Entrepreneur went to check on the commotion and found the other two dogs around Tanner who looked like he was sleeping. But he wasn’t.
It was that fast. No clues as to what happened. No opportunity to call the vet for help. No nothing. Just questions and an all-consuming, stabbing pain in our hearts. Our best guess is he had a stroke, aneurism or heart attack. I saw him, dropped to my knees and lost it. The weekend has been a blur. Of course, it was packed full of activities. None of which could really be canceled. Take a deep breath. Put up a good front. Fall apart in private.
I still look for him eagerly waiting for us when we come home.
I still expect to see him lounging on the patio when I look out the back door.
I see his empty kennel and food dish and it hits me all over again.
But there is nothing I can do.
He was only 8 years old.
It’s not fair.
I want my dog back.
Linking up with Lisa Kerner over at Simply Living Photography and LTTL.
I am so sorry. Our furry babies are every bit family. Big hugs to you, Lisa. RIP Tanner.
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Thank you Suzie. They are definitely family.
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How terribly sad. Retrievers are my favorite breed.
My thoughts are with you.
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Thank you Roger. They are an awesome breed, but I’ve come to find out the breed may becoming plagued with genetic issues because they are so popular.
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Oh friend. Dogs passing are the hardest. Giving you a far away hug! ❤
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Thank you Kayla for your warm Alaska hug.
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So very sorry! I never had the opportunity to meet Tanner but loved seeing the pictures of him. Take comfort in the fact that his life was one of love, laughter and family. Hugs from afar!
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Thank you Laura. You would have loved him.
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So very sorry. He was loved by many. Hugs for you and the rest of the family.
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Thanks Lori. He was a pretty good “office dog” too. 🙂
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Your post brings tears. So, so sorry for your loss. 😦
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Thank you Peabea.
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Oh Lisa! I will not “like” this post, and my heart cries for you. I dread the day my Bailey goes, but I know it’s coming – the girl will be 12 in November. Tanner’s sudden passing is heartbreaking, especially at such a young age.
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I actually thought about you and your fur babies today. I hope they are well.
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What a sad and unexpected loss, Lisa. I’m sorry that you are hurting so much.
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Thank you Elizabeth.
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Oh, Lisa, my heart is breaking for you.
I know how badly this hurts. They become such a part of our family, and have such an enormous place in our hearts. This had to have been especially painful because of the suddenness of it. I know that in time, your wonderful memories of him will bring you comfort, and a smile once again, to your face.
Fly high sweet boy, and alway know how much you are loved. xo.
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Thank you Lisa, I appreciate you stopping by.
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I am sorry to hear of your loss. Tanner is waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. I am glad you had a nice evening with him being normal but so sad you lost him.
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Thank you. I can never make it through Rainbow Bridge without crying like a baby!
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I lost my 14 year old GSD a couple of weeks ago so I am in the same boat. Random stuff makes me weep. The vet reminded me he was over 100 people years old but still miss him!
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My heart goes out to you and your family on the loss of your sweet Tanner. – They do become very much “family” and I know he will be greatly missed. – I pray you all find inner peace as you grieve his passing and may the memories of all the love you shared with him give you comfort.
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Thank you Ida, we have a lot of great memories.
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Oh, I’m so sorry! Without time to prepare, I know it is even more difficult. Pets are family.
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I have been thinking of this all week… my heart is heavy with yours.
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So sorry for your loss. 😦 It’s never easy with pets. I hope the memories you have of your dog remain vibrant and in your mind to help you through this.
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